it took me awhile to come back...but i'm here...let me know if u want my new xanga name..no one ever does though

-KittAy

Currently Playing Silence in Black & White By Hawthorne Heights see related

- Desolve nd Decay - -

[mood] loved <3

yes...i've cut once again, both my thighs are fucked. theres about 100 on the left (not jokin) and 37 on the right.

i miss Matt with all my heart. i cant wait till i see Matt I'M SEEIN HIM TOMORROW!!! we're gonna have mad hot wild sex. lol. i love him so fuckin much!!!! ERNEST I LOVE YOU TOO!!!! lol.

let's go down now... 
into the darkness of your thoughts. 
Hurry up now; 
we're waiting for us to fall; 
I fall to pieces now; ( fall to pieces) 
a broken mirror... ( fall to pieces) 
and your life. 

The silence in black and white... 
falling forward as she walks toward the light. 

RIGHT NOW 
I'm outside of your window with my radio. 

I sleep with one eye open so i can see you breathing. (i sleep with one eye open) 
I follow your chest bone. (so i can see you breathing) 
Until i can see you, i can hear you breathing....exhale 

The silence in black and white... 

RIGHT NOW 
I'm outside of your window with my radio. 
RIGHT NOW 
I'm outside of your window with my radio.

NOW NOW 

I'm outside of your window with my radio. ( wishing you could be there) 
I'm outside of your window with my radio. ( wish you could be there) 
I'm outside of your window with my radio. ( wishing you could be there) 

I'm outside of your window with my radio. 
You are the only station; 
you play the song i know... 
(you are the song i know)

She wore crushed velvet
Jet black and to the floor
She rode gods angels wings
That peers to shine oh so bright
Now the dark has gone this far
In her eyes that die
I cant find you
Ill wait for you i cross my heart

Dissolve and decay theres nothing left for me (right now)

Walk slowly towards the lights
Shes calling still falling, down
Shes crying (shes crying) and dying, lying
About last night
She cant find a way to tell me i cant find you
Ill wait for i cross my heart

Dissolve and decay theres nothing left for me (right now)
This fires dying down theres nothing left to take (right now)

Dissolve and decay theres nothing left for me
(sit back and let her die slowly, dont cry, she didnt love you anyway)
Dissolve and decay theres nothing left for me
(just try to make it out alive your blood bleeds, your blood is flowing)

(right now) dissolve and decay theres nothing left for me
(right now) this fires dying down theres nothing left to take
-Hawthorne Heights KICK ASS BAND!!!!!!!!!!
 
i love Matt so fuckin much....*cries*
 
 THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1. my adictions
2. falling in love
3. my reflection
THREE PEOPLE I LOVE
1. Shalysa/Ash-wee
2. Matt/ERNEST!! lol
3. all the juggalos & lettes/emo kids
THREE PEOPLE I HATE
1. Leigh
2. Kristi
3. my father
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:
1. Shalysa
2. Matt and his funny giggle
3. Ashley when shes stoned
THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME CRY
1. Matt *sniffles* not in a bad way...
2. my mother
3. myself and my adictions
THREE THINGS I LOVE:
1. Matt <33
2. music
3. kissing in the rain
THREE THINGS I HATE:
1. my life
2. sometimes myself
3. my adictions (once again)
THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
1. sometimes mine and ash-wee's relationship as friends
2. adictions
3. love & romance
THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:
1. marry Matt
2. move to Amsterdam
3. be deeply in love
THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:
1. emo kid
2. emo kid
3. emo kid
THREE THINGS I THINK YOU SHOULD LISTEN TO:
1. Hawthrone Heights
2. Coheed & Cambria
3. me screaming inside.. 
THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:
1. how to change myself
2. stop this adiction
3. how to put my heart back together
 
((KittAy)) <33
 HELL YES!!
 
(convo. between Matt and the fag Manuel that wants my ass)
 
i want katyy: lDeViAnCelBsLl: dude wut the fuck is wrong with u 
Fdragonkiller56: dude who the fuck are you??
lDeViAnCelBsLl: DUDE THIS IS KATYS FUCKING BOYFRIEND STOP FUCKING BOTHERING HER SHES MINE AND U ONLY WISH UR LIL DICK FUCKING GAY ASS COULD HAVE AND SHES MINE AND I WILL FUCKING KILL U IF U FUCKING GO BY HER OR FUCKING CALL HER AGIAN I SWEAR TO GOD LIL KID 
Fdragonkiller56: "LIL KID"??? DAMN BOY I SWEAR U DONT KNOW WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU MESSING WITH DO YOU?
Fdragonkiller56: RUN AWAY PUSSY!!!
Auto response from lDeViAnCelBsLl: this fucking kid will not leave her alone cuz he wants his lil dick to feel better
lDeViAnCelBsLl: run away i will kick ur fucking ass from her to amsterdam lil fuck i wiill stomp on u like a bug ass wipe
Fdragonkiller56: hey there lil bitch.. you better start talking nice to me.. or else you gonna have your own fucken ass in your fucken mouth if you dont fucken SHUT UP!!! i swear bitch if you dont shut up .. ima beat you asss.. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: lmao 
Fdragonkiller56: no laughing btich.. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: ur funny lil bitch u deserve die cuz u go and try and take girls from there boyfriends cuz u know i got katy shes mine u see that pussy on her thats mine u see that face thats mine and not urs all u can get is the local hooker on ur corner whitch is ur mom 
Fdragonkiller56: dude you can take the face i dont fucken want it. jajaj i only pussy jajaja.. 
Fdragonkiller56: oh you fucker better leave my mom alone. bitch dont mess with mah family .. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: hahaha
Fdragonkiller56: or else is REALLY GONNA BE YOPU AS.. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: jajajaja 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: hahaha 
Fdragonkiller56: w/e man you aint worth anyways.. you just a lil fucken 14 year old kid i bet that.. fucker.. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: u fucking ghetto gangster bitch ass ill talk about ur mom and the pussy u do get is ur fucking moms
Fdragonkiller56: you cant do shit. to me.. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: im 17 and ill whoop ur ass 
Fdragonkiller56: I TOLD YOU BITCH. AND FUCKEN STOP TALKING ABOUT MY MOM. MAN. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: MAN 
Fdragonkiller56: IDK FUCKER CARE. JAJA I CAN TAKE YOU BITCH. YOU FUCKEN POT HEAD.. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: whoaaa get it all out DROGON KILLER 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: lol 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: i havnt smoked pot in my life i dont live off that and crack like ur mom 
Fdragonkiller56: ohh.. dawg. 
Fdragonkiller56: im warning ya.. ima find out who the you are and goonna kill you as.. 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: xlxUgLy GiRlxlx: Fdragonkiller56: hey a man doesnt hit a women.. but damn sure. i can stomp your ass.. really bad. ;;;;;;;; u touch my katy i will stab ur ass then ill show u a west side beat down u lil fuck face
lDeViAnCelBsLl: lol 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: ur fucking hillaros 
Fdragonkiller56: ha-ha-ha yeah fucken laught all you want till i get you man.. you aint coming alive from this one. theres no one that can fucken save you man.. 
Fdragonkiller56: yhou wanna know whot are you messing with man??
Fdragonkiller56: OH THEM RIGHT BITCH YOU ARE MESSING WITH A MEXICAN AND KNOWONE MESS WITH A MEXICAN THIS WAY BITCH.. 
Fdragonkiller56: IS GONNA BE YOU ASS IM TELLING YOU.. . 
Fdragonkiller56: WATCH YOU BACK.... 
Fdragonkiller56: WATCH YOURSELF IM COMING FOR YA. 
Fdragonkiller56: BITCH!!!!
lDeViAnCelBsLl: my whole high gots my back abnd they will all come after u 
Fdragonkiller56: jajaj band??
Fdragonkiller56: what are you??
Fdragonkiller56: just tell me what are you white.. or what??
Fdragonkiller56: PUSSY!!!
lDeViAnCelBsLl: does it matter to u i though u just go for pussy not the face and im not gay so goo look for some other mexican guy that wantas ur nuts 
lDeViAnCelBsLl: PUSSY !!!1
Fdragonkiller56: aight just shut up and everything will be fine aight.
Fdragonkiller56: i dont think you deserve to die this young dawg.
lDeViAnCelBsLl: first of all dnt tell me to shut up and sec if u touch katy talk to katy i will find then it will go down and i will kill u bye u lil fucking lil dick faggit ass mexican shit stub 
Fdragonkiller56 signed off at 8:59:29 PM. 
 
FUCKER!!!!